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Three Years Ago, Kesha Struggled With Finding Happiness. Now, She's Found A Pot Of Gold At The End Of A 'Rainbow.'

"You can be the person you want to be today."

Kesha is back on the music scene and it's all because of a keyboard.

While she was in rehab for an eating disorder in 2014, the singer felt musically deprived. She needed something — anything — to write songs with in order to help her cope with her emotions.

So she begged for a keyboard.


Not long after her consistent requests for the instrument, Kesha's boyfriend Brad sent her his keyboard. Even though she was only given time with it for an hour every day, her emotional storm of emotions began to clear up and her new album, Rainbow, was born.

In a personal essay she wrote for Refinery29 after the release of her album single on August 11, Kesha talks about how that time in her life changed her outlook on life. Playing "Rainbow," her new single, on the keyboard day after day was just the first step.

"Every day I would just cry and play that song because I knew I had to get through that incredibly hard time," she said. "I knew I had to change and learn to take care of and love myself, and I had no idea how to even begin."

Kesha's experience in rehab taught her that she no longer wanted to be self-deprecating or mean to herself in any other way. That decision was also something she wanted to translate into her music.  

"I let myself be 100% genuine, vulnerable, and honest in my music," she said. "I used to be very mean to myself. "Rainbow is my letter of encouragement, a promise that I want to start a new dialogue and be more supportive and nicer to myself."

She gives the same advice about self-love to her fans, noting that learning to love yourself is half the battle.

"I am a walking testament to anyone out there that with honesty and self-love, you can feel whole again," she said. "No matter what you have been through, even if things feel unfair and hurt your soul, it does not have to define who you are. You can be the person you want to be today."

Read Kesha's full essay here.

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