Woman Writes Stunningly Poignant Reply When Asked What It's Like To Have Autism

"I want to be around people so much."

A 28-year-old woman from Christchurch, New Zealand penned a painfully eloquent reply to the question "what is autism really like?" posed on Ask Reddit last week, revealing the rawness and vulnerability that so many with autism spectrum disorders face in their day-to-day lives. 

The woman, identified only as "Matty" on her blog, posted her comment on Reddit under the username UnusualSoup, where it quickly picked up 20 gildings: each worth one month of expanded membership options on Reddit. 


Her response read, in part:

"For me, horrible. I am lonely. I want to be around people so much. I love talking, they taught me to talk and forgot to give me others to talk to. I want to work, but I need supervision.

I hit my head on things when I am upset. I hate that. My arms flap when I am excited and people stare. People stare for other reasons too...

And I love children and children love me, they love to talk to me and ask questions, or talk to me about cartoons. I would never harm anyone but their parents act like their child is in danger it makes me feel like I am a terrible person.

Luckily now I am friends with an 8 year old and she is awesome, loves lego and we have a lot of talks about who is the best disney princess. Explorers (I told her about an explorer in lego Johnny Thunder who explored tombs and she has suddenly decided to love the idea) and also about doctor who and time travel (The back seat of her car is a time machine when we go anywhere!)

So I guess in short, Autism is lonely, it can cause a lot of pain, its like being trapped in a body that is only half loaded. Just cause people are aware of autism or accept autism, doesn't mean they will make time for those with autism.

Also I wish I could dress and shower myself and care for myself better and also go out on my own. I would go out every day."

Autism Speaks writes that some of those living with the disorder experience difficulty with social interaction, repetitive behaviors, and both verbal and nonverbal communication.

Matty's articulation of her struggle, frustration, and loneliness should serve as a reminder that we must endeavor to remember that behind any condition – whether it's autism, depression, or anything else – there is always first and foremost a human being sharing the same needs that we all have: love, fulfillment, acceptance, and understanding. 

For another view of autism, take a look at this short TED Talk by 16-year-old Rosie King, who describes her experiences with Autistic Spectrum Disorder. 

Cover photo: Nevena Marjanovic.


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