Man With OCD Perfectly Describes What It's Like To Love Someone When You Have A Disorder

Tears all over.

When you fall in love, the center of your universe shifts. 

Days and nights, steps and breaths start spinning around one particular person. There's weakness in your knees and a tremor in your voice. Your heart is beating like crazy. 

Now multiply it by a thousand. That's the kind of love slam poet Neil Hilborn describes in his viral poem "OCD." 


"The first time I saw her, everything in my head went quiet. All the ticks, all the constantly refreshing images disappeared."

Hilborn, who has obsessive-compulsive disorder, wrote this ode to love back in 2011. In almost three minutes, he manages to perfectly capture the joy and frustration of being in love when you have OCD.

"I asked her out six times. In 30 seconds. She said 'yes' after the third one."

"She loved that I had to kiss her goodbye 16 times, or 24 times if it was Wednesday."

In his Reddit AMA, Hilborn shared that the tics in his performance were intentional, but there were times when they become real. 

"Now I just think about who else is kissing her. I can't breathe because he only kisses her once. He doesn't care if it's perfect."

Hilborn also shared the fact that the girl from the poem was indeed present when he performed it in front of a big audience. "She did come back... And then left. And then came back, and then left again," he wrote.

Listen to Hilborn's full poem below.

(H/T: Button Poetry


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